I dont know what I did for you to hate me so much. I know you have abandonment issues and all that but dont torture me for moving on in my life. Thats not fair. i always supported you. Why cant you do the same for me? You are obviously in a place that doesnt welcome things that you cant control. Im sorry for that. But when you get through this I will be here for you. I always was. I guess just not enough for you to appreciate. I could say 'I'm sorry' all letter long but in the broad spectrum of things Im not really. Im not sorry for getting married. Im not sorry for being happy. Im not sorry for moving on in my life and becoming an adult. But I AM sorry that you couldnt see that all of things were good for me.
there is alot I want to say but I cant put into words. Or atleast put into a list so I remember all of them. Things have ended shitty and you did them on your terms. Just how you wanted.
Over the past few months I felt like you were trying to control my life in order to be in control of yours. I dont know if you did that intentionally or not but it pushed me away. You were afraid of being forgotten and in turn you made yourself into an unpleasant memory.
I dont know if I will ever send this to you but Im glad I did this for me. there were alot of things I needed to say that you didnt give me a chance. You didnt even give me a chance to defend myself. You just strung me up and gave everyone else a bat to beat me bloody with.
I feel like I've been treated unfairly. The Lauren that you have in your head is not who I am.
You are my Little Brother. No one else will ever be that. I will love you always and forever.
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