What do it do. I'm so numb, so dead, so... sad that i don't know what to do. I don't deserve hope and i don't want pity. I feel like a ghost in a shell. I have given up things all my life to make other people happy and i for once have found the strength to make myself happy above all others. and I don't want to give away that independence. But It is very lonely when everything has to be shut down so one doesn't slip. And I don't think i can come back from it. Its seeped into my bones, this loneliness. how do i come back from that. Goddess please give me the strength to be vulnerable again cause i don't like this thing i have become. I want to feel, i want regret, i want loss. I want to feel. I want to be human again. A woman that deserves to be loved and cared for. And can care back with all her heart. always and forever. I want to be that woman. I want to care again. I want to love. please. Why am i condemned again? What have i done. Please goddess let me feel. I'm very lonely and cold now, but i cant seem to shake my walls. so i ask you for strength. please. I need to know you will be there to hold me hand as i walk this path. and keep me going when i become whery. please. I beg of you. dont let me fall...
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I truly hope as well that you find that strength. We would both benefit from it... but in many ways you above all would. I hope you give me the chance again to ease your heart... to show you love that would bring your heart such joy.
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