I dont know where to begin. It all goes in a circle in my head.
I feel lonely.
Im not okay
Im swallowed by this depression.
I need to remember myself
I need to remember Me.
She has been locked inside my head,
running in place,
while I go through the motions
on tired legs.
I feel neglected.
Physically,
sexually,
emotionally.
And Im stuck in this place.
I fear that I will always be neglected
sexually.
I want to be held
I want to be handled
I want to feel like a woman again.
I need to get out of this depression.
Im getting tired of fighting myself.
Maybe I should just shut off and let my body continue living.
but will I wake up one day?
Will I wake up one day, when all time is lost,
and realize it was all wasted.
What if I could just go into a coma
for the rest of my life?
That would be so much easier than waking up.
Why?... Just why?
A useless question question,
but one my heart still yearns to know
the answer to.
May I fade away now?
I told someone.
Shouldnt my job be done?
Can I go to sleep now?
Im tired of choking on my own misery.
Everything is not okay.
